Valentine's Day!!!

Valentine's Day is next week, and it will be my third Valentine's Day with my boyfriend. However, this year I am not that excited because I don't think it will be any special, and my enthusiastic about it has dwindled down. This Valentine's Day, my boyfriend has to work the late shift, and won't be home till midnight. I've asked my boyfriend to request to work only half day that night, so he can finish work at 7:00pm, and we can go to dinner. For this year, I didn't make any reservation or had plans to eat at a special place because I don't see the point anymore. My boyfriend is not romantic, and he doesn't seem to see that these occasions mean a lot to women. Therefore, we plan to eat at a simple Vietnamese restaurant, Sea Dragon, and I'm pretty sure it won't be booked that night. For this year, I know that my boyfriend didn't make any special plans to order for me flowers or chocolate covered strawberries. Instead, this year I took the initiative to pre-order for me a dozen chocolate covered strawberries under my boyfriend's name at Amy's Ice Cream shop. I've scheduled to have them pick up in the evening, after 7:00pm. It seems silly of me to plan my own Valentine's day evening, but I know my boyfriend doesn't care about these holidays. When I always plan for my own occasions, sometimes I think my boyfriend doesn't care.  For this year, I have begged my boyfriend for an Instax Mini 8 Camera in pink, retailed price for $69.99, and a packet of 50 films for $30. I wanted this cute camera for several reasons. First, I wanted this camera because I love to do scrapbooking, but I have not done so in a long time. I used to print my photos off at Walmart, and it would be costly, about $20 each time. With my own camera, I can instantly get the pictures right away, and  I don't have to order through Walmart. Second, I love taking pictures wherever I go. My iPhone is loaded with pictures of my boyfriend and me, so much that it crashes my iPhone regularly when I want to take more pictures. With this camera, I would take it with me to our summer vacation, and I can have fun with it. Third, I want this camera because I want to be able to gloat to my sisters and best friend what my boyfriend has bought for me for Valentine's Day. Yes, I know I can afford this camera, but it's more special to receive it as a gift from the person you love. I want my sisters and my best friend to think that I'm a lucky girl, spoiled by her boyfriend with the gift she wants. I want my boyfriend to look good in my sisters' eyes. However, I don't think my boyfriend will present me with this camera that I really want because every time I asked him for it, he would get mad and say "no". On top of that, this year, he may not even celebrate Valentine's day with me because he isn't sure if he wants to request off early. My boyfriend told me he wanted to save his vacation hours for later in the year.

I don't have hope that this year will be special anymore. I remembered our first Valentine's day together, and that was the first time I ever celebrated Valentines day with anyone. That year, I reminded my boyfriend to make reservation at a nice restaurant, but he procrastinated until the day before. He called Red Lobster to make reservation, but they don't take reservation. He told me probably that night won't be too busy, hence that's why they don't take reservations. On the night of valentine's day, my boyfriend came around 5:30pm to pick me up. I wore a body hugging purple dress, cropped leather jacket, and a Tory Burch sandal I borrowed from my sister. My boyfriend wore a green button up shirt, with dark denim. When he came to pick me up, he handed me a bouquet of colorful daisies still wrapped in the Walmart bag. I was already disappointed with the flowers for two reasons. First, the flowers were still placed in the Walmart shopping bag. This showed that my boyfriend didn't bother to plan ahead of time to order me a nice set of bouquet. Even if he bought them from Walmart,he should have taken the shopping bag away. Second, no one gives their sweetheart on Valentine's day colorful daisies. Those type of flowers are more suited for mothers or teachers, not for lovers. My boyfriend handed me a card he bought, but I didn't bother to open it because I was already disappointed with what was in store for me. As we were driving to Red Lobster, it took my boyfriend an extra long time because he was lost, and he couldn't find out where it was located. When we got to the restaurant, the wait was extremely long. We had to wait for almost two hours before we can seated for dinner. While we waited in the car until our alarm beeped, I was upset at my boyfriend. This was not how I envisioned my first Valentine's day to be like. Finally, we were seated at this small table, making me feel cramp. Although the foods were good, the atmosphere just was not hitting the high note. I remembered just sitting there eating and minding my own business because I was very unhappy about that night. After dinner, my boyfriend drove me home because he had a headache. Usually he would want to spend the night with me, but we both felt that night was going downhill.

Therefore, I don't want to have anymore high expectations for my boyfriend this Valentine's day because I don't want to be disappointed time after time. Although last year's valentine's was better, but I was the mastermind behind it all. I always wind up planning for what I hoped my boyfriend for once takes all the credit. I don't have any dream valentines day, but I would like it if he actually put in some thoughts in making this day more special for us. I know my boyfriend very well, and I know that he won't do such things for me.  That's why this year will be extremely simple, but I don't even know if we can celebrate together , and I hope I would receive the camera I want. I hoped all the men in this world can realize that this day symbolizes the day of love. It symbolizes how much you love her, and how you want to make her day a little special because she deserves it. Unfortunately, my own boyfriend doesn't understand this, and assumes it is just another day.