My problems

I am still very down about everything. I hate my life. There's not one thing in my life that I am proud of. I do not have a clear professional pathway. I might continue my education and get a masters in psychology, so I don't have to be where I am now. I have found this school that offers online courses for masters in child and adolescent psychology. If I start in July, I might be able to graduate in December of next year. I really love psychology. I love learning about the illnesses of the brain, and how other aspects of our life can trigger such illnesses. My only fear if I decide to take this program is the job market. I am worried that I may not have a stable job, even with a masters. I am hoping with my masters, I can be able to teach at a community college or work in some counseling areas with children. I don't want to spend $25 grand on school, and not have a job. My current bachelors degree doesn't even give the chance to work in my field. Hopefully, if I do get my masters degree in psychology, then I will be able to find a suitable job with a decent income. My second worry is money. I hate subbing, and I dont like being paid so little, given the amount of stress I have to deal with. This month I didn't take up as many jobs because I did not feel happy to work. I think for this month, I will earn about $600. Then I have to subtract out rent money for my sister, and I have to book the hotel. I want to tell my boyfriend to book the hotel first and I will repay him, but I think he will complain to me. A few days ago, I told him to book the tickets, and he was all grumpy. I don't understand why he puts money in between us, and when it is for his family, it is always OK. I have calculated a rough estimate of how much I have to spend from now till June, and I think it will be about $3000. I don't want to work much, but I have so much to pay. My last concern is my relationship with my boyfriend. I don't feel happy and special being with him anymore. He doesn't treat me like when we first dated. I always sense that money has become so important to him. Before he would spoil me even when he said no, but now everything I said will give him stress. He doesn't treat me to things anymore, and always expect that I treat for him. That's why on vacations, he wants me to pay for the hotels. When he is out with his family, he doesn't make them pay hotels or airfares. Instead, he pays for their everything. I know I am not as important as his family, but we have been together for three years. Beside money, I keep thinking about the way my boyfriend treated me every time he is sad. I can still feel the tension and the pain that I endured over and over while waiting for my boyfriend to reply back. I don't feel happy being hurt over and over. I  can't handle it anymore, because every time I think about the time he hurt me, then my heart just breaks into a million pieces. Dating is the hardest thing I ever had to do. I never put that much effort into trying to make him happy, but all he sees are criticism and dislikes from me. I am very tired.