Tonight I am...

For some reason, tonight I feel very sad and alone. I didn't tell my boyfriend and I didn't text with him tonight because I didn't know what to say to him. I don't know why I felt sad and lonely, but I am. For some reason, I think even if I told my boyfriend, he wouldn't do anything much. He's busy working, and he doesn't have time for me. I think one of the reasons I am sad is because I don't get to hang out with my boyfriend as often as I would like to. Before,  we would hang out a few days on the weekdays, and both days on the weekends. Before, I would wait for him to get off work at 4:00pm, and come over to pick me up, and go to his place to hang out. Then on weekends, we would hang out early, and he would take me out where ever I wanted to go. Before, he would called me everyday after work, as he was driving home from work, and he would frequently text me. Now, we only get to hang out once or twice  a week because of his work schedule. He now works from 3:00pm-12:00am, and I would work in the mornings, returning home around 3:00pm. He has been working this late shift for almost six months already, and I really don't enjoy my lonely nights. He has asked whether he should sign up for the same late shift or take up the morning shift, but I told him to pick the one he prefers. I rather him pick the morning shift, but I knew that he won't because the night shift pays more and he doesn't have to wake up early. With him working the late shift, the only time we can hang out is on Saturdays, and sometimes on Sundays. Some Sundays, he is tired or unhappy, and doesn't want to be around me.  We hardly get to talk or chat anymore. I know he tries to call or text me during lunch break to make me happy, but sometimes it's not enough. The only time of the day he contacts me is around 6:30pm. Sometimes a sweet " I love you" or a " I miss you" text message when he opens his eyes would warm my heart.

Truthfully, I feel very lonely, especially at nights. I don't have anyone to talk to, someone to care for me. I wished my boyfriend would have realized how I felt, but I know that he is too occupied to understand. I have to be the understanding girlfriend who allows her boyfriend to have his own space when he's unhappy, but when I'm not happy, I just wished I could run to him. Some days I don't want to go to work, and spend my mornings with him, but I know he won't like it. Well, I hope after a good night sleep, I will be energize to work tomorrow and be happy again.