Today's time

Today, I broke the rule that I had said no to before. I decided last night that today I would come over at 7am to visit and sleep with my boyfriend. I know that I shouldn't because it's a weekday, and I'm afraid of him shutting out on me the next day. But I wanted to hug him a lot, and I did miss him. Plus, tomorrow's valentines day, so I thought he couldn't possibly shut me down right? We had a nice morning, cuddling and hugging each other. I enjoy hugging him, and laying next to him. He makes me feel warm, and happy just hugging him. We had a nice and simple lunch at Chick-fil-a, and wandered around Target to buy some snacks. We came home to more cuddling, and hugging before he had to go to work 2pm. But maybe I was right after all with the curse, and the fact that he always shuts down on me after he sees me on a weekday. Normally, on a weekday during his lunch break, he would call me, so we can about half an hour to talk, but today, he texted me shortly after he went to lunch, and said he won't call me. I kind of expected this result to have had happen, but I just don't understand what or why my boyfriend does what he does. Does he think that hanging out in the morning before work is sufficient, and no little chat will make it better? Does he think that he only will call me on days we don't see each other. I was kind of prepared for this, and I am prepared for this weekend. I know the more we hang out everyday, the more tired and stress out my boyfriend will be. I don't think next week we will hang out because of this week, we would have seen each other for four days. I rather have him miss me, show me he miss me, text me when he can't call me than to ignore me or leave me hanging because he had enough of me. Last night, he still said he miss me, and that he wanted to see me. Are guys like this? Do all guys treat their girlfriends like this? I am not a commodity. I have feelings. When I miss him, I want to hug him. When I want to hear him talk, I call him. But I don't mind, seeing or talking on the phone with him everyday, but he does. Before when we first dated, he made the time to call and text me everyday, regardless of how busy or how many times we have seen each other. Now, he doesn't show me that same kind of special treatment anymore. It kind of made me sad when he texted me that, but I decided to keep quiet and not bother to text him back. I feel like my boyfriend does this all time to me, and he just makes me sad because he makes me feel as if he doesn't want me. I tried to tell him this before, but he wouldn't listen. He would sigh because he's so tired of me complaining and expressing how I feel. I guess he will never understands how I feel, and what I want. I don't know how he feels because he never steps forward to tell me. Sometimes, I feel frustrated with everything, and I thought that I can keep myself busy to reduce it all, but it's not easy. I just hope he will always love me, and make me his wife . That to me is more  important than anything in this world. I will just learn to hide my own problems from him, so that he can be happy and not stress out.