Life is full of surprises and mysteries, making us wonder how our future will turn out to be. We were always taught to plan our future, and be self prepared to achieve the best in life. From the time we were little, we made several unspoken plans mentally taking notes of it, and hoping we can achieve it. We made plans of what college we hope to go. We made plans of what we hope to one day become. We made plans of the lifestyle we hope to have. We are animals with the genetic ability and skills to strategically plan what we hope will happen. Although we were taught that by careful planning, we can successfully achieve what we set in minds, but we were not told the truth. The truth is, nothing goes the way we plan. We may control our destiny, but we do not control the obstacles and challenges that hinders or changes our plans. With that, we are faced with reality, and the realization that our childhood fantasies are just fantasies.
When I was little, I had hoped and planned on one day being a great neurosurgeon because my mom passed away due to brain tumor or becoming a pediatrician because of my love for babies. When I was little, I wanted to become a doctor to make my family, especially my daddy proud of me. I can tell you now that I'm not a doctor, and I'm not in any medical field at all. Life is unpredictable. I did not know my dislike for chemistry until I went to college, and realized that it was not as easy and self explanatory like high school. I was struggling in college to understand chemistry, and all its confusing components. I remembered staying for tutorials every day, and I still would not understand the materials well enough to be in medical school. I would study the notes day and night, and it gave me so much pressure when exams were coming up. Then came my boyfriend. He changed my plans because since dating him, I realized that I wanted to have a family, the family that I did not have as a child. I wanted to marry young, and I know with school, it will slow down my personal goals. My boyfriend made me understand that I wanted to have a family, spend the rest of my life with life, and go through any struggles together. I am happy that I met my boyfriend because he made me realized that family is more important than wanting money.
When I was in high school, my best friend and I would always talk about our plans for the future. I remembered how I planned on going to medical school, finishing it when I'm around 30 years old, and then working for a few years to pay off school loans. I planned on becoming an entrepreneur, investing in houses and apartment complexes or open a bakery with a Parisian theme. I wanted to become the Asian version of Donald Trump and Oprah Winfrey, and be on the faces of tabloid magazines. Obviously, all of these plans did not happen. I am just a regular lady with hopes of one day getting marry, settling down, and starting a family.
Now as a mature adult, I have plans of my own with my boyfriend. I hoped that we can soon tie the knot, have three or four cute babies, and live a happy and carefree life together. I made these plans since I've been dating my boyfriend, but life is so unpredictable that I worried that this will not happen. Throughout our almost three years of courtship, I have made several plans, but only a small number have been completed. Now with my boyfriend feeling extra nervous about marriage, I think my plan of marrying him is on the back burner. If the day my proposes to me, then I will be so elated that I know that this time, I will tell the world my good news, without being shy to hide the news.
Life is always playing tricks on us. The more we want something, the more we can not have it. I think this is the way for God to show us to be thankful of our blessings, and teach us the value of life. We must understand that life is full of questions, and we all are eager to explore the endless possibilities.
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